I have been having a rough time lately and worry
about my health. I was at the eye doctor and he said that the optic nerves of
my eyes looked anomalous and he made a rapid referral to a central hospital for
a follow-up examination. There could be many reasons for that my eyeground
looked different, some more severe than others and that got me very worried.
The time went by so slow for I have been worrying so much lately, even I have been
trying not to. All the stress and worry got me really down emotionally... So
today I went to see an eye doctor to the central hospital. The doctor’s
appointment went well – he said the words I needed to hear: “there’s nothing to
worry about”. I still need to go to CT scan of my head to make sure
everything is okay... After the appointment was over I could breathe for first
time in a week for I had been so stressed.
I have been having rough times many times in my life - but who hasn't? The key
for me is having to find the ray of light into the pile of twigs. I have had
many methods to find that ray, for example, watching movies (that has been a
lifesaver for me), writing (another lifesaver), listening to music or surfing
in the internet for hours trying to watch funny pictures or videos and these
are the top of my list.
Now, I’ll try to stay as positive as I can! That’s really my only option right
now.
I want to appologize the silence which has been taking over my blog for the last few months. I have been having a very tough time lately and writing my blog hasn't really been my first priority. My dear cat passed away which was a very though break for me, and then there has been other things also.
In time, I have tried to learn to live with all of these things and learning to accept them. In the mean time I have tried to do something positive and do something I feel good to blog about. I don't feel like blogging when I'm feeling down and no one really likes to read blog entries like that, right?
So now I'm concentrating on the good sides of life and day by day I'm getting there and I'm trying to keep you up with blogging about them.
Nights are so very dark again. I know it is
going to be Fall before I will even notice it. Still I feel like I have enjoyed
the summer enough and it haven't just slipped by me. So I'm not having a crisis
about that and that's good.
I've been having heavier times again and it shows on everything including blog
entries. I just feel down and I feel I can't get anything done. I still have been having good moments
in between the down time... I've medicated myself with movies.
On this weekend I will go Helsinki with my mom and we are going to have a girl’s
quality time. We are taking cats with us also and we are going to go see my
brother and grandparents. Changing a scene always does well and this could not
come more better time.
